waiting game....

Two months from today I will be in England....
Two months can feel like a reeeaaaaalllllyyyyyy long time...
And it can also go by in the blink of an eye.
How is it possible that at the moment it is doing both... at the same time!
It's still not sinking in that I will be walking the streets of London and sitting in a Oxford classroom in only a matter of weeks. It still feels forever away, like the idea of it isn't real yet. But I know that the next few weeks will go by so fast, and then it will only be a month, and then a few weeks, and then a few days and then I will be on an airplane and all of a sudden it will hit me like a ton of bricks! I am really nervous about that moment. I know that once I am on the plane I can't turn back so maybe it's good that I can't think about it til then!
In all honesty, I am still scared. I get caught in anxiety about the whole experience in the middle of the night and realize that this is the biggest thing that I have ever done in my life! And that is when I feel like I am 12 years old again and starring down a week at summer camp. But this is so much bigger, so much longer and so much farther than summer camp.... sometimes I have no idea what I am doing!
But that is only in the middle of the night... Don't get me wrong, I am SO excited and SO stoked about the whole idea of this adventure. I am going to learn and grow so much- but growing can be painful and learning is hard. I know I need this, I just hope I love it.
Will you join me in prayer this week friends? That I will be bold and excited and embrace this amazing opportunity? I want so badly to make the best of this and I am so excited!
Thank you friends for listening to my cyber musings... =)